The Beginnings of a French Adventure

Everyone knows how life can bring many unexpected surprises and plot twists. Sometimes, one small decision made by someone behind a desk - a client you almost completely depend on, someone who doesn't care at all about any consequences for you - can change your entire life. In our case the loss of our biggest client in 2006 forced us to choose between the two countries we lived in; we had a rental home in The Netherlands and a house we had just bought in France in 2005. We obviously chose the one we had just bought, and this meant emigrating to France. Our French adventure started when Peter and I got married on my Birthday, 13th June, 2007. It was a perfect day; everyone was there, and we we very excited to begin the journey that would take us to where we are today. The wedding party was an emotional one, because it doubled as a farewell party. Only 2 weeks later, Peter and I would move from The Netherlands to our beloved Cathar Country in south-west France.

July 1st, 2007. While the truck took almost a week to arrive, Peter and I already traveled to France on July 1st, a non-stop journey that took over 15 hours. At 5.08 am sharp we left, beeping loudly. I'm sure it woke everyone up.

The journey went very well and it was an exciting, but also a bittersweet adventure; I knew I would miss my family and friends a lot. But when the truck arrived and our furniture and other belongings were unpacked, we really felt that we had come home. ♥

The Birth of a Gite
We didn't have much time to settle properly - several boxes wouldn't be unpacked until 8 years later - for the Summer of 2007 was not going to be a lazy one. The house we had already bought in 2005 came not only with a detached double garage in the shape of a little cottage, it also came with a heavy monthly mortgage. Having lost our biggest client in 2006, we had an urgent need to create a new income, so we decided to use our last savings account to transform the double garage into a lovely, charming holiday cottage. And so, after the design I created was approved by the architect de batiment de France, work started on the garage in the Summer of 2007.

Peter did a lot himself and I helped out with the wood staining and painting, the design and the interior decorating. Obviously, the fact that we are not far from a historical monument made it impossible for us to execute exactly what we had in mind. We also found out that the quality of the material here in France isn't by far as good as we were used to in Holland. But we did our very best and put our heart and soul into the cottage, which we baptized "Le Conte du Graal", named after Chretien de Troyes' famous story of Parcifal and the Grail.

Slowly but surely, the cottage was coming together.

The first couple who rented the gite were honeymooners, which was so very lovely! In 2008 we started renting out the cottage through a Dutch tour operator who worked with the heart, and we soon became one of the most popular rentals in this part of Cathar Country. Unfortunately, the tour operator was taken over by a heartless giant a few years ago, and we decided to rent out through another tour operator, and only during the mid- and high season. In the low season we will rent it out directly (from November to March).

Last year - in 2018 - we celebrated the 10 year anniversary of the gite, with heartfelt gratitude to all who have spent their vacation in "Le Conte du Graal". ♥ We are very much looking forward to another 10 years, meeting people and sharing our little corner of paradise.

Below you can see our beloved cottage after 10 years:

Most people know Peter and myself from our tours and my guide work here in Cathar Country, but we are so very proud of the holiday cottage we have created, a home away from home that we love to share with as many people as possible to experience Cathar Country while staying in its very heart. ♥ We would love to have you stay in our holiday cottage "Le Conte du Graal" and offer to you not only weekly rentals, but also transfers and excursion packages - with me as your private guide - for special tariffs, with or without transport.

Our holiday cottage can be rented throughout the year.

Off season (early November to late March): you can rent our cottage directly through us: email to anneke@panoccitania.com to check availability and to make a reservation.

During the mid- and high season: through NOVASOL (our house number is FLA210).

For more information, click here to go to our web page. We hope to see you soon!

From Cathar Country, with Love. ♥ xox



Being called to Cathar Country

In the past 5 months I have been a tour guide on quite a few group tours and private tours. Because of this work, I meet hundreds of people per year, and every year is different. All groups are different, and each and everyone of the participants experiences Cathar Country in an entirely unique way. Though everyone is blown away by the the history, the mystery and the raw beauty of this region, there is one peculiar curiosity that continues to draw my attention: at least 75% of the people I meet had been 'called' to Cathar Country.

Interesting times
It is true; we live in interesting times. We are worrying about the future of the planet and humankind, but although our world needs desperate attention for sure, it is known that the ancient Greeks and Romans used to be worried about the future as well, thousands of years ago. Every earthquake and every volcanic eruption was to them a sign of the Gods and signalling the end of days. I think we will always look into the future with worried eyes, especially when we are in a situation that is - or seems to be - troubling and beyond our control. We could actually get quite traumatized by seeing so much world news in the media, for the human brain is not really capable of absorbing so much more than what is going on in our own direct environment. We are literally overloaded by world news, by global problems, and many - especially young - people are suffering from suffocating peer-pressure. As if our souls are being stretched thin by too many negative impressions and too much unnecessary pressure. So what can we do about it?

According to the Cathars, the Essenes and early Christians, our spirits are born into a material world, while originally coming from a different state of being. At Birth we are being sucked into fragile, needy baby bodies, our souls are reincarnated into the flesh, locked into the material world. From day 1, babies need parents (biological or foster parents) to take care of them. We are a depending species, and our brains have developed a natural instinct we call our 'monkey-brain'; every day we wake up and lock into an automatic survival mode; food, water, shelter and companionship. We need others around us, as well as the security of a community. We need to work in that community to earn our food and find ourselves a safe place to live. From the moment we grow up from childhood into adulthood (some need to do this quicker than others), we experience several uncomfortable factors, such as pressure (the need to achieve) and responsibility (for yourself, for others and for your environment). Therefore, our main focus is outward.

Reconnecting with Self
In the days of the Cathars, people were still living in communities; clans, families and friends living together in a village-type structure, so everyone could look after one another. Like the Essenes and the early Christians before them, who also created social communities for the same purpose, they knew that people living alone could one day get into great personal trouble (old age, sickness, accidents, etc.) so living alone would be a courageous choice, if it was a choice. In ancient days the world was not yet overpopulated, like today, but - crazy enough - today we see more people living alone than in any other time period in history. Also, many people have become so absorbed in feeding their monkey brain, that they have forgotten the idea of caring for others, let alone the sensation of all of us being One and that we are all in the same proverbial boat. We seem to have totally forgotten our origin, our Self. Still, more and more people are on a spiritual Path, in a way a bit like the Cathars, pushing away religious systems and doctrines they cannot accept, although in this modern age it comes down to balancing the inner and outer Self in order to give life purpose and meaning. For those who are on this Path, the Art of Reflection might be the most interesting Hermetic Teaching to study.

Nowadays, many people are traveling all over the world on all kinds of different errands, but it does not surprise that Cathar Country has become a place where people who are on a certain Path are feeling drawn to. There is so much space here; vast and raw nature, fresh water coming from wells and sources, abundance and - depending on your religious background - there are those very special holy places, where certain information can be discovered that might reconnect us with Mother Earth, and with our inner Self. In this manner, Cathar Country has become a brilliant Power Point Presentation and a School for understanding important (often forgotten or forbidden) history, for studying higher natural science and the ancient Mystery School Teachings that have been brought here by those same early Christians and Essenes, who traveled around the ancient world in service of others and to spread the Gnosis of the Above and the Below. It is clear that, after seeing thousands of people coming in from the Holy Land to Occitania and Catalunya in the first centuries CE, Cathar Country has become - at least for them - the New Holy Land, and what they brought here is what we are searching for now.

Genetic footsteps
And then there are those in search of their family origins, who end up with ancient relatives in Occitania. I believe that we may not only be able to remember passed lives through our soul's memory; but that also our genes have memory. We are the children of our ancestors, we carry their DNA, and thus their DNA memory. Our bodies contain up to 75% water. If water has memory, then why wouldn't our genes have memory, too? Our Divine Nature is so difficult to comprehend; I think we hardly know anything yet. I have discovered ancient family connections to this region only after I had felt the magnet during my first visit in 1998. At that time I did not know anything of my family history, but I know that I am not the only one who has experienced this, who has felt that magnet... It is a fact that, at the times of the Religious Conflicts (the Cathar Crusades and the Religious Wars), many inhabitants of Occitania left their homes to settle in mid- and northern Europe, the British Isles and Ireland, South-Africa, and some of them would later leave again to start a new life in North-America, Australia or New Zealand. It is quite possible that certain people who live in Canada, for example, find out that their DNA is French.

I find it interesting to see how the people who are tracking down their DNA feel that, in spite of all the locations their ancestors may had lived, they too are being 'called' to Cathar Country... ♥

Anneke Koremans


Exclusive Group Tour September 2018!

15th to 23rd September 2018


Last minute discount: € 100,- p.p.!  

THERE EXISTS an ancient realm in southern France, where forbidden history and unsolved mysteries reign; a land of stunning natural beauty, incredible French cuisine, ancient castles, goddesses and energetic power places. To visit Occitania is more than just exploring historic sites; Occitania allows you to click back into the footprint of your soul.

From Saturday 15th to Sunday 23rd September 2018!

* Accommodation.
* All meals from dinner on arrival day to breakfast on departure day.
* 7 day excursions incl. entrance fees for the sites we will visit.
* 1 transfer on arrival day and 1 on departure day (Toulouse airport).

* Airline tickets / train tickets / taxi fares etc.
* Travel insurances.
* Personal expenses.
* Extra drinks not included in the meals.


This mini bus tour is different from any other tour that has ever been organized here in Occitania. Although a visit in Rennes-le-Château is on the itinerary, we are also going to explore several 'off the beaten path places' no large tour bus can reach.

On this tour we will explore Gnosis and Cathar philosophy. We visit PEYREPERTUSE Castle and QUERIBUS Castle, two Cathar castles that we usually only visit during a private tour.

We will also see the mysterious beehive-shaped houses of COUSTAUSSA and discover rare MAGDALEN statues in three different places; statues that are often overlooked...

We will see the famous LAST SUPPER in the St. Volusien Church in Foix and visit the mystical crypt of the "Notre Dame de Sous Terre" in ST. MICHEL DE CUXA in the Roussillon.

We will explore the BETHLEHEM CAVE above Ornolac, visit the ND DE SABART, MONTSEGUR village and monument, the ND DE MARCEILLE and the Hermitage of GALAMUS.

We will discover an ancient and mystical chapel dedicated to ST. MICHEL, hidden deep inside ancient forests, and visit a strange church with a tiny PENTACLE in its leaded glass window.

We will visit THE UNDERGROUND VERSAILLES in the Conflent (the Grandes Canalettes cave), the Troubadour castle of PUIVERT and the ancient chosen place of ALET with its esoteric background. Of course we will also explore the enigma of RENNES-LE-CHATEAU on a special visit. Let's try and discover the reasons why Rennes-le-Chateau has become the main character in such a mysterious play...

Obviously it will be no surprise that the FRENCH CUISINE will be seriously sampled, along with some fine WINES and the Mother of Champagne: the much praised BLANQUETTE DE LIMOUX, which is a lovely light sparkling white wine, invented by mistake in this very region!

Of course we will also help people with their diets (for example vegetarian).


Let's explore the deeper layers of Cathar history and beliefs and see those special places that are not often included in a normal group tour.

Let's go on an adventure...!

The MAISON TEMPLIERE Hotel in Belvianes will cater to all your needs. Situated in-between the rocky mountains of the Pyrenees and the volcanoes in the high Aude valley, this characteristic hotel on the bank of the Aude river has a restaurant, a swimming pool and a relax-space with Jacuzzi, where you can enjoy aromatherapy and massages (not included).

We have secured 6 comfortable (single) rooms with en-suite bathrooms for this tour.

Last minute price:

Single room:
€ 1950,- € 1850,- Euros p.p.
Double room (two people sharing):
€ 1800,- € 1700,- Euros p.p.

Minimum 4, maximum 7 people.
Three seats left!

When you register, you will receive an e-mail with the possibilities of payment and - as this is a last minute reservation - we will ask you for a total payment (100%, no longer refundable) to secure your seat. If you wish, we can give you personalized advice about your flights into Toulouse (flights not included) and the transfer to the hotel (1 group transfer included on arrival day and 1 on departure day).

The Terms and Conditions (link given below) apply to this tour, except for the details for the payment.

For registering, or if you have any questions, email me at anneke@panoccitania.com

Your tour guide on the Ultimate Cathar Experience:

My name is Anneke Koremans. Since 2007 I have been a resident of the southern French department of the Aude-Pyrénées. In my spare time I enjoy photography and writing (under the nom de plume of Jeanne D’Août) and producing little video trailers to help promote this region. Since early childhood I loved studying the lost history of civilization, the first centuries of Christianity, the Gnosis and Mysticism. My esoteric adventure novels and articles have been published in English to reach as many people as possible. In the past I have been a guest on many radio shows, both in the USA and in Australia, but also on a live TV Talk Show in Las Vegas in 2013. In 2012 I was interviewed for a now world famous TV documentary called "Himmler and the Holy Grail", giving me a page on IMDb. I also worked together with the well-known American filmmaker Frank LaLoggia, to write a synopsis for a possible screenplay for my first book "White Lie ~ The Quest for The Forbidden Relic", which is available together with its sequel, "The Eye of Ra", on Amazon (see www.jeannedaout.com for all the direct links). In the Summer of 2015, I became a member of the ITW (International Thriller Writers Organization). In 2016, both "The Forbidden Relic" and its sequel "The Eye of Ra" were also published on Kindle eBook. In the past few years I had the honor of being the private guide for several VIPs and celebs from all around the world.

I would LOVE to see YOU on this very special tour. If you are interested in joining me, then send me an e-mail at anneke@panoccitania.com.


N.B. This tour is only for those who are able to walk rocky paths that are often on a slope (sometimes steep).



Day 1, Saturday 15th September

Peter will meet all the group members at Toulouse airport or Toulouse train station between 11.00 am and 2.30 pm. Transfer to the hotel in Belvianes for a meet and greet with local bubbles, the famous Blanquette de Limoux! (included)

Dinner (included) with the group.

Day 2, Sunday 16th September

Departure: 08.45 hours. Today we will go back into prehistory, when we explore the ancient Bethlehem Cave with its pentacle, and the Hermit's Cave (exterior parts only). Before we go to the lunch address, we will visit the Notre Dame de Sabart with its ancient origins, an old Magdalen chapel that is often overlooked and some interesting symbolism.
After lunch we will go to the village of Montségur to hear the story of the Cathars. We will also visit the Cathar Monument and separate the legends from the historical facts.
Before driving back to the hotel, we will stop at the Fontaine de Fontestorbes, a unique natural phenomena!

Breakfast, lunch and dinner included.

Day 3, Monday 17th September

Departure: 09.00 hrs. This morning we will start our tour with a visit to the Capitelles, better known as the beehive shaped houses of Coustaussa. We will explore the various explanations and see several up close. Afterwards we will drive to Les Pontils, where we can see from the road the spot where a tomb once stood. This tomb has become famous in combination with a certain Poussin Painting called 'Shepherds of Arcadia'. After Henry Lincoln used this landscape with the tomb in his documentary, the owner of the land received so many unwanted visitors, that he blew up the tomb. Now, only the spot can be seen from the road where this tomb had once stood.

After a short coffee stop in Rennes-les-Bains, we will climb to the Devil's Chair, aka 'Throne of Isis' as it is called these days. We will see the Source du Cercle and hear the stories of prehistoric Europe, the Celts and the possible function of the 'chair'.

After lunch in Rennes-les-Bains we will drive via the Pas de la Roque to Rennes-le-Chateau, right through the center of Henry Lincoln's famous Pentagram and passing historical places like La Maurine (early Moorish settlement from the late 8th century), and Lavaldieu (La Valle Dieu), a gorgeous property that once belonged to the order of the Knights Hospitaler. Passing the fields where Visigoths battled the Moors, we will soon reach the road to the ancient stronghold of Rhedae.

Obviously you will hear the whole story as I will share everything I know during this visit. We explore Saunière's Domaine, visit the Tour Magdala, the Villa Bethania and of course, the enigmatic church with its inspired messages.

Breakfast, lunch and dinner included.

Day 4, Tuesday 18th September

This morning we can leave half an hour later (09.30) as we drive north to Limoux to visit the Notre Dame de Marceille in Limoux, a basilica with a very important story. Afterwards we drive to Benoit, where we find an ancient church, most probably built on the remains of a late-Roman temple, with a pentacle in the window. This church has a little story about the Benedictines, and will be a nice introduction for the excursion to Prades tomorrow.

After lunch we will visit the ancient town of Alet-les-Bains, early site of Mother Goddess worship, with its fabulous cathedral ruins, the 'house of Nostradamus' (we will find out whether this is fact, fiction or a possibility during this visit) and if time allows, the church next to the cathedral ruins, which has several interesting murals, windows, artifacts and stories, of course...

Breakfast, lunch and dinner included.

Day 5, Wednesday 19th September

Departure: 08.45 hrs. Today we go south, to the town of Prades and the magnificent mountain Canigou, holy for the Catalans on both sides of the French/Spanish border. Here, at the Abbey of St. Michel de Cuxa, we see a very old example of superb pre-Romanesque architecture and we discover the true identity of the early Benedictine Order. There is much to be seen here, for the eyes to see...

After lunch in the picturesque fortified town of Villefranche sur Conflent, famous for its military architecture by Vauban, we visit the amazing caves of Canalette, also known as the Underground Versailles. Breakfast, lunch and dinner included.

Day 6, Thursday 20th September Departure: 09.00 hrs. Today is a real hiking day; first Queribus Castle, the eagle's nest, where we visit the ancient stronghold and see the pillar which holds the power of the mountain like an antenna. It is said to activate the throat chakra. This castle, as well as the castle we visit this afternoon, was important for the Cathars, for they found protection from the Cucugnan family and were allowed to hide behind its walls in times of danger.

Lunch in Cucugnan, and then off on another hike, a bit longer and steeper than Queribus, as we visit the mountain fort of Peyrepertuse with its two levels. There are again stories to be told, but also amazing photos to be taken, making amazing memories to take home with you.

Breakfast, lunch and dinner included.

Day 7, Friday 21st September
Departure: 09.00 hrs. This morning we leave southward, driving through gorges and magnificent landscapes, to reach a very old chapel, probably from late Visigoth to early Carolingian period, with a horseshoe gate and very old chapel. It is dedicated to Archangel Michael and stands in the middle of nowhere on a hill. It's an enchanted spot, where sensitive people will be able to see the colours of its aura, or feel the silence and balance of the geographical spot.

We have lunch in St. Paul de Fenouillet, and after lunch we will visit the Hermitage of Galamus, where we hear the story of the Knights Templar and discuss the source of the ancient knowledge, protected and shared by many thousands of brave people throughout the ages. Thanks to them, we can still talk about it today. On request I could sing the medieval Franciscan version of the Aramaic Lord's Prayer called the 'Abwoon', a song that the Franciscans - who where in the Hermitage 700 years ago - may have sung on the exact same spot. We will discover the SATOR AREPO TENET OPERA ROTAS sign and I will explain its meaning and backgrounds.

Breakfast, lunch and dinner included.

Day 8, September 22nd

Departure: 09.30 hrs. This morning we will visit the castle of Puivert, exploring the Troubadours and the history of this peaceful castle on the Plateau de Salt.

We will have lunch in a local restaurant and the drive onwards to the city of Foix, with its feudal history. We will visit the castle and the church of St. Velusian, to see the famous Last Supper. The church sometimes closes without reason, so this is why we picked the Saturday afternoon for this visit.

At the end of the day Peter and I will dine together with the group on this last evening in the Templière hotel.

Breakfast, lunch and dinner included.

Day 9, 23rd September

Departure: 6.00 am from the lounge of the Templière hotel to go to Toulouse (airport first, then train station).

Early breakfast included.



This tour has been made possible by:
PanOccitania.com / JeanneDaout.com / Barinca.fr

Terms and Conditions


The Sacred Stones of the Sabarthès

A look behind the veil of Otto Rahn’s Grail Quest

[Photo credits: The Heretic Magazine]

This article was first published several years ago in 'The Heretic Magazine', issue nr. 10, written under my nom de plume, Jeanne D'Août. I now think it's time to share it with you. ♥

[French cave paintings, by Jeanne D’Août] 
Since the beginning of time, earth has been hit by meteorites of all shapes and sizes, and mankind has always been intrigued by these ‘stones that fell from the heavens’. Many of these stones created huge craters, depending on their size, so people must have considered them very powerful. Some radiated in the dark; others had such high iron content that, when scratched and wetted, red drops would form. It was as if these stones could bleed, just like humans and animals. Obviously, such stones would have been quite valuable. In prehistoric times, these ‘bloodstones’ were crushed into powder and mixed with marrow to become the red paint for the famous cave paintings of southern France, which - according to the latest archaeological research - were painted by female shamans. The paint represented the living blood of the earth, the soul of the Great Mother. By doing this, the shaman believed she was entering into a magical pact with the Mother Goddess with the intention of animating her paintings, so that she could communicate with the spirits of the animals drawn on the cave walls. They became sacred paintings, drawn with Holy Blood.

[Bloodstones, by Jeanne D’Août]
These ‘bloodstones’ can still be found in the Sabarthès, but they are becoming scarce. Most specimens can be found inside the Fontanet Cave, which is now closed to the public. To understand how these sacred stones of the Sabarthès became the leading objects in a famous 20th century Grail quest, we must first travel back in time to the first century CE.

Immigrants from the East
Two millennia ago, thousands of Jewish refugees fled from Palestine to southern France and northern Spain to escape the harsh Roman rule of terror in their home country. On arrival, they introduced the Jewish culture to the region, including mythology, music, folk tales, customs and religion. Among these refugees were Essenes and early gnostic Christian missionaries, the first to set foot on French soil. These were gnostic mystics, preaching a new faith based on ancient concepts. They mixed the esoteric Hermetic Teachings with new rules, based on old principles. Because they recognized certain aspects of this new religion, the local French tribes - which at that time still mainly consisted of Celtic Gauls who had their own pantheon of gods and goddesses - were open to certain aspects of the new faith. Slowly but surely, after many conversations and joint philosophizing, the influence of these new ideas from the east began to take root in southern France.

[St. Peter’s Basilica, Rome, by Jeanne
D’Août; Popes ruled by the sword]
Gnosticism and Christianity
Fifteen hundred years ago, a previously pagan Europe - where Celtic and Nordic traditions had always been the old and accepted way of life - witnessed with mixed feelings how various eastern religions were cleverly penetrating the established western European cultural and religious societies, its governments and the systems of law and order. When the Romans left their empire to the rule of the Goths and the Franks, Europe had already become a multi-cultural society, divided like a quilt tapestry into hundreds of small realms, dukedoms, counties and princedoms. These were ruled by their own elites, who almost constantly fought among themselves for power, land and the spoils of war. These rulers also took the liberty of pronouncing exactly what kind of religion their people were allowed to follow. Those who lived in towns under their control made sure they obeyed their ruler’s wishes and piously demonstrated their prescribed religion in public. However, in the countryside, the farmers and lumberjacks often remained faithful to the ancient laws of nature and their deities. Hence the use of the word ‘pagan’ (peasant, farmer or woodsman), or ‘heathen’ (people who lived on the heath, like shepherds), words that became invectives and caused division and hatred between townspeople and country folk. These pagans and heathens became the outcasts of society. They were called heretics; freethinkers, non-believers or worse: devil worshippers! So, around 1200 years ago, Europe was plunged into chaos. As a result, the Roman Catholic Church decided to dedicate themselves to becoming the primary remedy to cure Europe, if necessary, by sword, terror and fire. In the year 800, Charlemagne was crowned emperor of the new Holy Roman Empire, with Christianity as its main religion. Under his rule, his armies conquered land after land with just one goal in mind: to unite Europe under Christ.

Of course, there was more than just Roman Catholic Christianity in Europe. Because of its multi-cultural society there was also Judaism, Islam and of course, paganism. There were also a number of small splinter-groups that had created their own rules and philosophies - some more esoteric than others - who had cut themselves off from the main religions and boldly went their own way. Within Christianity alone, several sub-groups had already broken away during the reign of the first Christian Emperor Constantine the Great (4th century CE). Most of these groups had chosen to remain faithful to the original faith, which was mostly Gnostic in origin.

[Qumran, by Jeanne
D’Août; the caves where the
Dead Sea Scrolls were found]
Gnosticism was very popular in the Near East and had quickly spread into Europe with the refugees that had come from the Holy Land, two millennia ago. The Dead Sea Scrolls and the Nag Hamadi Library, for instance, found in the mid-20th century in Israel and Egypt, contained ancient Gnostic scrolls that have now given us a wealth of information about this somewhat politically influenced religious philosophy. Early Christianity - before it was changed to fit the visions of the new power state created by Constantine the Great and his successors - was very Gnostic indeed. These new splinter-groups mentioned above wanted to preserve this ancient Christian philosophy and stay closer to what their Master Jesus had taught them. The Cathars were such a splinter-group; a gnostic Christian community with several very basic rules to help them evolve their own beings into a perfect state. Therefore, their highest priest was called a Perfect. Strangely enough, the Cathars got along very well with accepted Christian orders such as the Franciscans and Benedictines. However, the Cathars refused to accept the Roman Catholic dogmas and doctrines, and because they were very popular in southern Europe and did not believe in paying tax money to Rome, they formed a very real threat to the ‘Holy Mother Church’. Consequently, the Roman Catholic Church tried to wipe them all out in the 13th and 14th century. This holocaust cost the lives of almost a million people and, not surprisingly, this act of terror quickly resulted in the creation of underground groups and secret brotherhoods. It was during those dreadful times that relics and scrolls were hidden in caves, forgotten mines, church crypts, secret rooms in abbeys, houses or castles - places now forgotten by mankind. Until perhaps one day, a lucky relic hunter comes along who accidentally looks in the right places...

The Guardians of the Grail
Situated in the south of France, the Cathars are believed to have been the guardians of the Holy Grail, the true cup of Christ, a tangible object that allegedly made its way to France by early Essene or Christian missionaries, Jewish refugees, the Knights Templar or even Mary Magdalene. The question is - could Jesus have had such a cup? This is actually quite possible. In the Near- and Middle East, important families possess a traditional cup, mostly silver or gold, which they use during religious feast days. In Hebrew, this cup is called a ‘Goral’. Obviously, the word could have easily been morphed into Gral or Grail throughout the ages. Did Jesus’ uncle, Joseph of Arimathea, a wealthy tradesman and supporter of Jesus, use this cup to catch Jesus’ blood during the crucifixion? Or is this just a symbolic story in troubadour style, teaching us to look deeper? To look beyond? To look inside? There are clearly many versions of the Holy Grail, so when we remember the saying ‘as below, so above’, perhaps there really is both a material cup and an immaterial, more symbolic cup.

[Crypt of St Michel de Cuixa abbey,
by Jeanne D’Août]
The symbolism of the Grail in paleo-Christianity
Towards the 10th century, Cathar Country - today’s southwest of France - had become a melting pot of cultures and religions and thrived on trade, open philosophy, art, architecture and learning. A new understanding of higher natural science and metaphysics was developed from studying ancient mystical religious concepts. A metaphysical aspect of Mother Mary, for example, the Notre Dame de Sous Terre (Our Lady Beneath the Earth) became an important focal point for the Benedictine Order, an increasingly successful Christian order in the south of France that coexisted peacefully with the Cathars at that time. To the Benedictines, Mother Mary was the embodiment of the Light in the World: the Christ in her womb. She enabled the impregnation and birth of new life on earth, born through her body, inside the cave or crypt. This ancient mystical teaching symbolized the impregnation of the Mother Goddess (the earth) by the Holy Father (God), while Archangel Michael himself became the symbol of the impregnation with his fiery sword; Michael the Light bringer; Lucifer. Here we recognize the sore spot that created the misunderstanding about the Cathar view. Lucifer, of course, is what the medieval Catholic Christians called the devil. It didn’t take long before people accused the Cathars of devil worship, thinking they were focusing only on the extremes: good and evil. According to the Inquisition reports, the Cathars believed that the earth was created by an evil God, Lucifer, while the Heavens were created by a good God. However, knowing what we now know about Lucifer and the Light in the World, we are beginning to understand that the Cathar view was much deeper than a mere black and white - heaven and hell - based religion.

A deeper awareness of the energies that rule the world and the Universe, and knowledge of the Hermetic Teachings, can be recognized when we research the Cathar esoteric philosophy more closely. The medieval view of God and all of Creation had been divided into two extremes: Firstly, there existed an esoteric, mystical and metaphysical study of higher natural laws. Secondly, there existed a much more exoteric, black and white concept of the temporal material world with all its pain and sorrow on one hand, and the eternal realm of Heaven on the other; the source to which we all aim to return to after death. In this view, living souls were considered to be body-trapped light beings; fallen angels who only had one goal: to be returned to the Creator and the Heavenly Realm of the Good God. This is the generally accepted Cathar view. However, in the same period, the Catholic Christian view in their competition with the splinter-groups had no choice but to come up with its own dogma to be able to teach their flock how the Light in the World that creates and sustains life on earth could be explained in a simple way, and while debating this subject, a new question arose: what was this mysterious and holy content of the Grail cup, and what was the complicated mystical truth behind the Grail Lore?

[Artist unknown]
Indeed, the Roman Catholic Church soon managed to present its very own adapted explanation: To enable the Divine Light to exist within the material world, Mother Mary - while symbolizing Mother Earth - had to become the Divine vessel. Consequently, Mother Mary became the Mother of God. By this dogma, Jesus’ mother took over the ancient Mother Goddess role, and thus, albeit in its own unique way, Christianity had actually saved ancient Hermetic knowledge from oblivion in a new, changing world.
However, these difficult metaphysical Grail concepts were not so easily understood by all the people who followed the new Christian faith. It is not so easy to lift the veil of Isis and discover the Grail, our own Divinity within ourselves; to recognize the Light - the Divine Spark - that lives within us all. Perhaps Parsifal simply managed to pierce that veil (name related pun intended). For the more exoteric followers of the faith, who struggled to grasp the metaphysical and mystical concepts that exist within the symbolism, new dogmas and doctrines were created, and Biblical stories were adapted and simplified. However, the more these new Christian missionaries evangelized the region, the bigger the demand for tangible holy objects. Also, there was a growing need to anthropomorphize the new deity, to give it a shape everyone could connect with or relate to. People needed relics; remains of saints and Biblical people, pieces of cloth that belonged to Mother Mary, splinters from the cross, etc. and when the tale of Parsifal became popular, there arose a rapidly growing demand for Holy Grails.

[Artistic illustration]
The Pyrenean Grail
We arrive back in the Sabarthès region of southwest France and the sacred extraterrestrial stones that had become part of a 20th century Grail quest; the meteorites called ‘bloodstones’ that were sacred to prehistoric shamans and to the inhabitants of the area we now lovingly call Cathar Country. Being pulled into the Grail lore craze, like everywhere else in Europe, the people of the Sabarthès must have had a similar desire to behold a real, tangible Grail cup. So, what if someone had the idea of carving a cup from a bloodstone to use as a Grail? All you had to do was fill it with water and scratch the bottom to turn the water into ‘blood’. ‘Un vrai miracle!’ It is said that there really is such a cup. Though I have never seen it, locals call this cup the ‘Pyrenean Grail’. Could this be the Passover Cup that was used by the Cathars of Montségur? But the Cathars did not celebrate the Eucharist. They did not believe that a piece of bread could miraculously turn into Jesus’ body, or that wine in a cup could turn into his blood. Thinking of their background - perhaps they gave the Pyrenean Grail cup a different assignment. The mystery of the Passover cup goes back to an ancient Jewish tradition, in which the cup is actually the Cup of Salvation, referring to the Exodus and the great escape from Egypt. Knowing they would meet their death in the flames at the bottom of the mountain the next day, this could have been a reason for the Cathars to use the cup in a ritual to prepare for death - their escape from the physical world and journey to the afterlife.

[Black meteorite and green impactite by Jeanne D’Août] 
Although this in itself would already be an interesting subject to investigate further, meteorites also have another, perhaps even more remarkable quality. The moment they pierce through the earth’s atmosphere, the immense friction sets them on fire, so it appears that these stones are coming directly from the sun. The sun, of course, is God. At least it was, until science reassigned it to be a mere star. In the old days, however, these meteorites and impactites became holy and sacred - the ‘rocks of God’. The most famous of them all can be found inside the cuboid Ka’aba - the ‘House of God’ - in Mecca. It symbolizes the Light in the world...

But there is at least one other stone that has become famous; a stone that has been lost, but not forgotten.

[Sol Invictus, photographer unknown]
The Lapis Excellis is a sacred stone, described by the German troubadour and poet Wolfram von Eschenbach in his version of ‘Parzival’ in the early 13th century. This stone was his version of The Grail, a stone that - according to an old legend - had fallen from Lucifer’s crown, the Corona of the Light Bringer; the sun. Wolfram’s tale had been inspired by the popular tale of ‘Perceval’, written by the French troubadour and poet Chretien de Troyes, who had written the story only a few decades before Wolfram’s. In his turn, Chretien’s tale had been inspired by a song written by the French troubadour Kyot de Provence, so we must seek the origin of the Parsifal story in southern France. Interestingly, this is the same medieval period in which the Cathars, the troubadours and the Knights Templar thrived in that region. Obviously, something very big was being played out in this era, something that was kept safe in myths and legends, so that it would not be forgotten. It was a quest to save the ancient Hermetic Teachings from going into oblivion.

[The Fontanet Cave,
by Otto Rahn, 1931]
Interestingly, Wolfram von Eschenbach is the only one of the three troubadours who speaks of a stone when talking about the Holy Grail, and it is this particular version that inspired the German relic hunter, author and poet Otto Rahn to investigate the facts behind the story in the early 1930-s. He literally left no stone unturned in his quest for the Grail and explored many caves, including the Fontanet Cave (photo, taken by Rahn) in a region called the Sabarthès in the heart of Cathar Country. One of the most famous sites in this region is the Cathar stronghold of Montségur. Rahn called it the Grail Castle Montsalvat, where, according to a legend, the Holy Grail was last kept before it disappeared. One legend says it was carried off the mountain by several escapees during the two week truce. According to the story, this truce was granted so that the besieged inhabitants of the castle of Montségur could celebrate Easter in peace. The legend tells us that at least three people were able to escape the besieged castle, just before the Cathars surrendered to the French troops. The next morning, on 16th March 1244, over 200 people of all ages were burned alive in the flames of a giant stake. After this black page in history, the elusive Holy Grail of the Cathars disappeared into the realm of lore. Until one day, some 700 years later, our curious researcher Otto Rahn on his Grail quest suddenly saw ‘the light’.

[Montségur, by Otto Rahn, 1931] 
Rahn’s passion with the Parsifal story and his search for the Holy Grail acquainted him with the story of the Cathars, the Bons Chretiens or good Christians, who were massacred just for having a different, albeit Christian belief. This story ultimately gave him enough inspiration and details to write his first book, ‘Crusade Against the Grail’, in 1933. What a strong title! It was this book that brought him to the attention of the Reichsführer SS, Heinrich Himmler, who gave the author a job in the Allgemeine SS (note: not the Waffen-SS). He did a lot of administration and Ahnenerbe (ancestor heritage) research and traveled a fair bit through Europe on a paid salary. However, some of his best friends were anti-Nazi, so - consequently - Rahn was closely watched by both anti-Nazi spies as well as Gestapo spies. However, by then he had forever lost his heart to the Grail castle of Montségur and wrote in his private correspondence, sent from Germany, that he longed for the Sabarthès.

After joining the SS in 1936, it must have been difficult for Rahn to travel alone as he had done before 1933. Nevertheless he managed to travel around Europe and write a second book, which was given the interesting title of ‘Lucifer’s Court’ when it was published in 1937. It appears to be a travel journal of collected articles, written in the years when he traveled through Europe. However, there are several clues that make the reader realize that he understood very well the connection between Lucifer, the sun, the Light Bringer, Sophia, the Holy Grail, Apollo, Sol Invictus and all other sun-connected deities and their metaphysical and mystical concepts.

[The Ariège River, by Jeanne D’Août]
It would not surprise if Rahn had done the math, adding sun worship to the presence of meteorites and impactites in the Sabarthès. These extraterrestrial fragments were found all over the area; some could be found on mountain slopes, others had been washed into the local caves in prehistoric times, when the Ariège river was as broad as a lake and as high as a sky scraper.
If you were one of the three escapees from Montségur on the eve of 16th March, 1244, with the sacred task of taking a certain object to safety, where would you hide a Grail stone? Where would you hide a pebble? Perhaps Rahn was simply looking for a lost Grail that had been hidden in plain sight, some 700 years before.

Through writing his books, Rahn made it possible for the world outside Cathar Country to become aware of the atrocities and horrific crusade against the heretics of the 13th and 14th centuries. He empathized with the Cathars, and had become angry with the Church of Rome for the medieval holocaust it had started; a mass murder against heretics, Jews and others who were not following the Christian dogmas; a black page in history which has been kept out of the history books. Surely, he must have felt he had to play his part in stopping it from happening again. Little did he know what horrors would come to pass in the years that followed and God only knows what this man went through when he found out.

[Otto Rahn, ca. 1936,
photographer unknown]
There had been a time when Rahn really believed he could change the SS while being inside this infamous order, but he found out too late that one tree could not possibly stop the avalanche that was already halfway down the slope in 1936. When Rahn was confronted with the atrocities of the Buchenwald concentration camp in 1938, he decided to quit his job in the SS. Then already in too far and knowing far too much, he must have become paranoid about being followed and watched, 24-7. Little is known about the last days of his life, but - according to the historical records - he was found frozen to death in the Austrian Alps in the spring of 1939. Next to his thawing body were the almost empty phials of sleeping tablets and half a bottle of French cognac.

Much has been said about Rahn, but after researching what we know about him and dismissing the speculations, I have become aware of the complexity of his situation and the harsh post-mortal judgment that must be tormenting his ghost. He was a poet, a writer and a relic hunter, searching like the famous archaeologist Heinrich Schliemann for ancient and forgotten places. Perhaps he had even found a forbidden relic. According to Rahn himself, he never found the Holy Grail, but he said he would have loved to find it. Still, he did mention possessing a stone from Montségur in his second book, ‘Lucifer’s Court’. “The stack on the left makes up this book.” he writes in the last chapter, “I will put them away, along with the stone I found at the heretical castle of Montségur.”

[Medieval drawing of Esclarmonde,
artist unknown]
Throughout the ages, the dove has become the symbol of the Cathars. Many believe it stands for freedom of thought and belief; others believe it represents the true ‘Holy Spirit’, the Divine Spark that is in each of us, our personal Covenant with God.
In his book ‘Crusade against the Grail’, Otto Rahn wrote about the Cathar Dame Esclarmonde, a name that roughly translates as ‘the Light of the World”. Esclarmonde was a legendary Grande Dame Cathar, a great public speaker and defender of the Cathar faith and rights, who was among the victims of the tragic fall of Montségur in 1244.

However, according to a shepherd’s tale that was recorded by Otto Rahn, she managed to escape from Montségur on the eve of 16th March, 1244; not as a mortal woman, but in the shape of a dove and holding the Holy Grail in her claws. She was seen ascending into the sky, flying high above the highest tower of the castle. Then, suddenly, the mountain beneath her opened up its rocky top, like a volcano ready to burst. She then dropped the Holy Grail into the mountain’s belly, after which it immediately closed again with a resounding thunderclap. In doing so, the Mont Ségur, the legendary Mont Salvat, locked and sealed the Holy Grail, the true Cup of Salvation, deep inside its bowels for all eternity. Esclar Monde, the Light of the World and at the same time the Holy Godflame, personified by Lucifer the Light Bringer - a concept that had been celebrated since prehistory, but which had been condemned to hell by a new faith - had chosen to return forever to the interior of the earth. It is only a shepherd’s tale, but perhaps, if we read between the lines, it contains the only truth.

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